I’m having a school holiday meltdown, and it’s only week two of the summer holidays – and Imogen isn’t even at full time school yet. Aaargh!!!
As usual it’s those little things that have conspired to make the school holidays just that little bit unmanageable, and panic has set in.
I had intended to take the school holidays off paid work in order to look after Imogen but even so I still do need a bit of time to a) update and write for this site b) do and get freelance work and go for job interviews and c) take some time out to fit in gym visits (which allow me to blow dry my hair and look fairly presentable, not too mention help with stress levels).
The thing is, none of these are likely to get done any time soon. Why? Well:
The holiday club I was intending Imogen to go to only had two days spare the whole six weeks of the holidays. I guess this is my fault but the lady who runs the club took several days to get back to me, after a couple of messages left on her mobile phone, during which time no doubt other days were booked.
The creche at the gym I’m a member has decided it is no longer a creche and will only take on children for nursery places. This means my one hour trips to the gym which include a workout and or shower with precious time to blow dry my hair are now impossible. I would often sneak in an email – with a feature or story idea – after a workout. So that thinking time is now gone. I wonder what the other mums at the gym think?
I have no relatives around to help pick up the slack and it’s not fair to ask them.
Now some mums I know seem to be able to fit all these things in, around looking after children. But I just can’t – evenings are for me precious time with Andrew.
One friend who doesn’t do juggling (but has a successful career a young child and financial stability) reminded me that it’s actually illegal to try and work while looking after a young child.
My one attempt – I tried sending an email while Imogen was having her lunch – ended in a tantrum, and made me feel even more guilty.
I’m only managing to get my paid consultancy work in first thing in the morning and last thing at night. In order to get everything done I’m going to have to get a childminder!
Wish me luck x